Friday, October 30, 2009

My Opinions on Everything Continued

Obviously had to continue right? I have opinions on things besides Rosie O'Donnell and one other thing. I mean c'mon...

Related to Rosie O'Donnell though. All opinions have to be related to Rosie O'Donnell. Never love a man. Only love a woman. I'm upset about Gore Vidal. I loved him a lot and then this is what he said of the girl in the Roman Polanski case: "Look, am I going to sit and weep every time a young hooker feels as though she's been taken advantage of?"

The safest thing is just to only love smart women and be radical like that.

love
Alexis

Thursday, October 29, 2009

My opinions on everything

Rosie O'Donnell

I love Rosie O'Donnell. She was voted most annoying celebrity a couple years ago, during that The View stint I suspect. What she said to that was something like "Well most celebrities are annoying I think. If I'm the most annoying, so be it." I think a lot of skinny straight actresses aren't brave enough or accepting enough with themselves... well some of them are.. lemme think how to say this... I'm all wrong here.. hold up. Okay, clearly Miley Cyrus, clearly most any celebrity, right? is accepting enough with themself to talk about themself on the internet - that's moot beyond moot- every idiot is saying what they think all the time. So okay, I'm wrong: I like what she thinks I suppose. She writes these terribly constructed all lowercase poems on her website, gives so much money to children's charities it's actually astounding, she gets really badly depressed by the horrible events that go on, and she hangs upside down in an upside-down hanger device for relief. She can be really caustic but it's part of her and you get more of the actual her than your average person on TV. I don't know: I think she has really good priorities.

Dick Cheney

I see no reason not to believe Dick Cheney had prior knowledge about the September 11th attacks. I got really obsessed with this right before I went to Italy and thought about it for the whole plane ride there because I'm certifiable. (It was alright. I just mean I'm certifiable because I like to get my upset on in airplanes... I also watched He's Just Not that Into You and all...) The segue here is Rosie O'Donnell who gets a ton of flack for mentioning "truther" websites et al. I'm really annoyed at Bill Maher who is going out of his way to make a "vaccinations are bad" argument at the moment but in the past has yelled at and kicked out members of his audience who want him to talk about World Trade Center Seven and says they're idiots. Actually that is very very strange that World Trade Center 7 fell on Spetmenber 11th in what was obviously a controlled demolition. The two towers - I don't know - of course I don't. Being hit by planes seemed like a good enough reason for them to collapse - even though the way they collapsed... let's not even get into that because you don't have to and we have no way of knowing and sound crazy if we try to. BUT The Truthers actually rightly identified WTC 7 as the thing to yell out about. That Bill Maher mocked this really bothers me. Evidently WTC 7 housed the security company, owned by Jeb Bush, for the whole WTC complex. Also a CIA headquarters. Larry Silverstein said on camera that they "pulled" it. Later he said he meant to say they "pulled the firefighters out of it" - but there weren't any firefighters there. It wasn't hit by anything that day and obviously didn't just fall like that. And even if Dick Cheney did not have prior knowledge about the Sept. 11th attacks, his reaction - (there are fighter pilots up every day with instructions to intervene in a course of events exactly like Septemeber 11th - he actually said no, not to take the planes out. This is recorded by a person with him that day - who was shocked. I believe it's a Panetta who is not Leon Panetta? Maybe Minetta?) At any rate he was asked : should they take down the planes? and he said no. This implies to me that in the moments that he found out, at best, he thought "whatever this is should proceed - I can use it to have more control and advance my agenda." When Bill Maher and angry essays at websites which I usually like criticize Truthers, they get all mad about how Bush was too stupid to pull it off so what an idiot a Truther is for imagining Bush could be behind such a thing. Yes that's right - Bush didn't do shit (He's actually told by handlers to just keep reading ). He read a book. It makes me and a lot of people want to pull out our own eyes. They say the truthers are such idiots- the administration was too incompetant to be responsible. Well, they were pretty competant at scaring everyone into two wars. They always wanted to go to war with Iraq. Cheney is an oil man and knows all those sheiks.... Why is it so implausible that he heard about this and thought 'great" and isn't that foreknowledge? And maybe he even helped them out a little. Why is this so hard to believe? I really resent being called an idiot about this. I don't think he was up in the twin towers planting blombs on staggered floors. I just think he knew and even planned for it a bit and I'd believe more than a bit. Look at him now! Did you see him on TV saying that his administration reviewed all aspects of the war in Afghanistan in 2008. 2008. He tried to sneak it by - the date- while calling Obama a ditherer for actually considering war in its real and complicated terms of human life. I think Dick Cheney smiled while all those American civilians died. Why is that hard to believe? George Bush smiled and took pictures. Dick Cheney said don't take down those planes and hid. There's a lot of information about this out there and fuck you Bill Maher. Agreed about people responding differently to different chemicals and an individual approach to medicine but I know what a vaccine is and why would you silence people about something I think everyone should internalize- Dick Cheney is a mass murderer- while saying stupid stuff you don't understand about medicine. No one makes you get vaccinated. Going to work and jumping out a window in flames is another thing.

Fear of Intimacy

I'll opine about this later.

Yow - I've always avoided talking about the Cheney stuff. That's why I admire outspoken Rosie. That's the synthesis there. Well now you know what I think!

XOXO
Alexis

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

nothin to do but blog to you

So that Spirit of the Times and New York essay isn't yet written - partially because if that magazine truly comes to exist (the person in charge of finding investors is out of town and hard to reach: that's obviously very critical and I've only met this Executive Editor once so don't know how reliable) it won't do so til about January. If my thesis, that it is a newly spirited time, is at all right, it should still be true then, and should be different enough by January to warrant, well, a revision... I'll work on writing about it because I may as well right now... eventhough I left my notes at home - I was drunk when I wrote them anyway...

Oh - but here's what I was talking about in them. You know, A) One thing we might as well look at off the bat (because it's not very revelatory) is that I can have a feeling about the Spirit of the Times of New York and think that how I feel is an accurate description of the Spirit of New York. Like I am as good a descriptor as anybody is of what is happening spiritually to 8 million people here (more... so many more...). It's always hard to find a definition of Democracy - (The Constitution did its best but White Men) but THIS about New York feels very very democratic. If it inspires you and you live here, you are allowed to characterize it. New York is Ours, not mine or yours. Have you cried on Mass Transportation and someone's attitude toward you was beautifully tranquil or liminally irritating? That's "so New York." Do you think this "Change" slogan, which was more of a word that rose from longing (Obama you Jesus Christ you :) :) ) and became a call, is perhaps becoming a Tangible Ethos in the City after eight years that you're quite sure felt "post September Eleventh" - and by that I mean Sad, Struggling. Do you have enough friends who still feel that they're struggling to think it's bullshit of you to say The Times They are a Changin'? I do, but I'm allowed to because this is my point. Living here is all it takes to be allowed to characterize the city entire. I think creative juices are flowing. I think money's getting shaken up. I know Bloomberg will win the mayoral but I trust that some perverted tiny pebble of liberalism I sense in his character (he's a New Yorker after all) will prevail in certain places. He wants to avoid the 70's coming back at all costs. What if we change to something un70's un80's un90's and certainly un 2001-2008 where there are avenues for people to turn their struggles into different lives in a New City. With the best architecture hands down by the way.

Hmmm... I think I need my notes to write more. Maybe I'll write about my personal life now for a bit and then try to say it's emblematic of the entire New York Zeitgeist. ???? I don't like that idea too much.

:) :) :)

Happy Wednesday. It's Pouring here.

love
Alexis

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

It's the blog of the season of blogging

What to tell you? This blog is old. We've seen me though so much - I could tell you my thoughts on topics. I shan't.

I have a mouse. I saw him over a week ago. I talked to realtor/landlord about it more than once. Nothing came of that though our ceonversations seemed like they were founded on mutual understanding about getting an exterminator. I guess it is for me to lay traps. I have not. Will I tonight? Doubtful.

Things that sound like a mouse when you are listening for him:

1) Rain
2) The Radiator
3) Nothing

There was also at the same time a problem with mosquitos. I had seen the mouse. I went to sleep, I woke up at 3am and had itchy bites on my hand and shoulder. The greatest fear of all, that of bedbugs, gripped me. How happy I was to hear the buzzing in my ear of a baby mosquito after lying awake twenty minutes wondering if I had it in me to put everything I own in a dryer again.

When mosquitos buzz in my ear I slap my own head.

Long story short, hopefully, after a few nights one of the mosquitos had grown large - I saw him on the wall and I killed him. There was another medium sizer buzzing about later. Unclear if I killed him or not. I tried with my hands. I thought I'd won the battle - I slept unbitten. I spent a night away from my place (ooooooooooo) and figured now if any were left they'd have died, starved of blood (but could they have found mouse blood?) then I awoke, two nights ago to a big buzzing of a big guy who per the fact I had been dreaming, was enornous, cartoonish, and wears sunglasses.

I did something that is typically ineffective against mosquitos which was move to the living room and slept there. It worked. I was unbitten, unwoken by further buzzing.

Last night I slept on the couch again. Again I am safe. Should I return to my bed tonight, will I be bitten? Remains to be seen.

Everything else is fine. It's a rainy day here. I don't want to talk about boys or my amazing laziness if you don't mind. I am unassigned at work and will read for a while now.

Sometimes I should talk about rent control. Maybe later today. :)

XOXOXOXOX love and love and love
Alexis

Friday, October 23, 2009

wow

So I'm still feeling happy everyone. I need to write a little essay which perhaps even in the coming hours I'll test run on here. In the meantime, know this - I want that essay to consolidate some feelings on life and New York and spirit. I may be curating a few pages of a magazine.. maybe. I looked to the geniuses I know for material and found my friend K's blog. It is this www.pinkotown.wordpress.com

Yeah. Secret blogs. That's where the Writing is nowadays = not the thesis. but true.

Friday, October 16, 2009

uh

I'm very very tired.

Yesterday was this event. It was a beautiful beautiful thing that I MUST describe to you. Afterwards was some partying - some love of the not sex kind. Today I wrote a five minute scene that goes in nothing. I'm sapped though and, um, this kind of partying is draining and weird making. Also the weather figures large.

Oh so articulate!

So yesterday was this big event - the Free Night of Theater event in Union Square. J produced it this year and it was going to be just gorgeous. All these yellow umbrellas - a great stage, flatscreens, booths, and the speakers wre out of control -the head of The Public Theater (and that's also Shakespeare in the Park - and this year Hair went from Shakespeare in the Park to Broadway) and Eric Bogosian and I'm just getting started and then performances by very very talented people. So then it poured. I mean poured. Which everyone knew was going to happen but what to do was extrememly unclear. And then J did this impossible thing of getting the Union Square Theater to host it. She did it with the best phonecall she's ever done by her own account. It was pretty amazing. She made it happen. Later she told us that while she was on the phone her walkie talking was going 'Umbrellas DOWN Umbrellas DOWN."

Then is the part where I stand in the rain with a sign about the relocation for a good while.

Then I got to the new theater - and was not needed - J and her collaborator pulled it off so amazingly and all these people still showed up - hell or high water- high water literally...

And the first speaker I saw talked about the USAs cultural budget - it's 145 million. And Iraq's - which Iraqis are dismayed is now only 85 million and wanted us to consider that the cultural budget of the country we occupied is half of that of our Empire. And then he talked about the tendency to think if only we were oppressed then we'd make amazing art and wanted to stress that artists are opressed - he is very good - he said if you're an artist and you feel like you need to make it hobby, feel like you can't breathe, feel like there's a boot on your neck that's becasue there IS a boot on your neck. Okay.

Then Maya Azucena sang Hallelujah - hers is the most beautiful ever. No words for it.

The performances were lovely and so many of the speakers addressed how this day was going on in spite of it no longer being the original intended event (it became a day sort of about the day existing - since it was no longer in any way an audience development day - it was for the sake of it happening.) Oskar Eustis spoke about Mother Courage in the rain - how it poured and they called the show but the performers, Meryl Streep was Mother Courage - insisted on doing it anyway, on doing it unmicd if electrocution was such a big deal. And how the audience stayed and how when it was all said and done everyone applauded eachother - cast applauded audience and audience cast and how only Theater is Theater basically.

It was very inspiring.

I am so tired. It was a lovely theater only theater is theater thing.

J really did the impossible. She must be so tired. For my part, I'm just weird tired. And busy and a little confused but it was a really beautiful thing I'm glad I took the day off for. And that's saying something to be glad you stood in the freezing rain on your last half personal day half vacation day combined possible for the year.

XOXO
Alexis

Friday, October 9, 2009

Honestly

When I'm happy I have nothing to say. Self-involvement makes for better reading when it's tortured. There's a reason people act melodramatic. :)

Anyway - I guess the bad news is a I discovered I really can't see from a distance. I've been discovering this for a long long time, but it really hit home unable to see faces without wrinkle and head ache making eye squinting in a decent mezzanine seat in The Samuel Friedman Theater seeing "The Royal Family." Of course decent rather than excellent mezzanine seats always sort of suck - this is known so... that. I made an eye doctor appointment so yes. And the main point about this is that Kelly's employer should give her better comp tickets. Really - she said they never give her the good comps and that right there has got to change. Obviously it's perfectly awesome for me that she works for the company that seems to have the shows I most want to see and she gets comps to previews and asks me! Not complaining - just musings on not being able to see faces and that really affecting how close you feel to the show. Happiness makes me note the obvious in really boring ways I think guys. I feel closer when I'm closer. I'm so glad I'm bringing you into my world.

After The Royal Family, I rushed downtown for more free tickets. Now this I wish you could have been there for, all of you. It was this variety show with this guy John Wesley Harding emceeing and the guests were Tanya Donnelly !!!! and Martha Plimpton sang Thunder Road very well and then John Wesley Harding made jokes about being really impressed by her songwriting but maybe it was a little pompous - he has an accent that is making his whole life work. So anyway - the sensation - what with the Tanya Donnelly Being There aspect - was of going to the coolest high school in the world where the talent shows are the bomba cabarets just like you were alyways imagining for back then and it's still the mid 90's oh my God I have everything I want I'm just chillin with a vodka soda at this cabaret with not ready for primetime bandsters of the sound I know and love. It was rad.

Then I got a few hours of sleep and came to work and did noooothing (read some "Burr"). Then all service to Astoria was suspended after work after I bought the most incredible lipstick in a silver case with a flip up mirror. Happiness also results from or results in some super consumerism from Miss America here. (Oh, then I walked to 42nd street for the 7, went to Queens Plaza - STILL no service to Ditmars, left, skipped the supposed "Q101" bus service people were 12 deep for, and walked off the 3 lunches left over from meetings at work that I ate earlier.)

i am not the deepest. i am not the smartest. But I'm doing up Fall with the imagining new starts and loving the weather and wearing the sweaters and seeing shows and this whole post is just like knock on wood.

XOXOXOX
A

Thursday, October 8, 2009

hmmm

today I would just like to use this blog to brag about the incredible amount of culture I have been getting.

But I'm too tired to do so because I was out getting it last night til 2am.

soon...

xoA