Life is good

If they could, all the messages, they'd have you believe that it isn't okay to stop for a second. And this is probably for a good evolutionary reason? Well I don't know. But the bills will build up and family will call! :-)

About two weeks ago I wound up going to check out a hotel for my birthday (which who wants to plan that expensive occasion? But it will be fun... wonder if I should proceed?) with the chatty and somewhat kindly defensive accountant at the cubicle nextdoor during an accounting office week. What an entirely predictable disaster/ moment- and surprising somehow anyway in the moment when I realized his view of life included Damnation for the sinners. And then, much drunker at the first available dive - not evolution.

Woah there evangelical. It shook me up a little. I had nothing to do at work following and availed myself of youtube videos about evolution, atheism and agnosticism, cosmology, and my old favorite Richard Feynman.

I never took Physics. I am unfortunately impaired at operations which move in several, and, especially, opposing directions. And I was never great shakes at arithmetic in the first place. The problem was probably my great tendency to laziness, anything but disciplined thought. :-) Still my step dad is a physicist, chemist, computer scientist genius and when we moved in with him he had Feynman books about how Feynman learned everything fixing radios, and also had to turn his room of radios and other circuits he was working on into my bedroom when we moved in.

God, you start thinking and you just can't stop. :-) That's what I came to (just now, but these last two weeks of thought [and trying to be in the human world too].) I'm in one of those moments where everything feels relevant. Tourists gave me their unlimited day train passes on my way home.

Me: Are you sure?
Dad and Mom with stroller: Yeah...
Just Dad: we're done.

Ha- it was about 98 degrees today...

Ah anyway, everything's a mess. I picked a fight w D, A wants to take me shopping. I want to quit smoking soon. I want to say to Christopher Hitchens that I don't think he spends enough time with mothers with his women-aren't-funny-for- evolutionary-reasons schtick- mothers are the most hilarious people on earth for, I think it's obvious, very good evolutionary reasons- like not losing it because you've got kids -silly thing to overlook. Having an amazing sense of humor is the exact same thing as being funny, silly. Men are idiots so it's kinda something that when I need some discourse coming at me from the Technology Entertainment Design world, I'm relying on them. Someone needs to invite Julie Taymor to that conference.

XOXOXOXOXOX love
Alexis